cutmecait

i am so angry that i just have to vent.

1. CERTAIN PEOPLE need to stop making comments about me leaving school. excuse me, but i have a steady job and i pay my rent. just because i am not at university at the moment doesn't mean that i'm less intelligent than people who are. i read a MINIMUM of two books a week, i write, i read the fucking newspapers. so don't act like im a fucking ignoramous because i didnt feel like i belonged at university last semester. i had a lot of shit going on which most of the people already know about and i just wish the people who are supposed to care about me would be supportive and recognize what i am accomplshing.

2. yea, im working at a coffeeshop now. no, thats obviously not what i want to do for the rest of my lie SO STOP ASKING ME. its whats good for me right now, and its not a fucking bad thing to be employed.

the ONLY good thing about today is that for the first time in a long time i made a frivolous purchase. i found a twoonie on spadina and bought some hot green eyeshadow. i figure, it wasnt my money so it was okay. thanks random stranger.

framed by dead, dead bones of trees
a pool of silver
two eyes burning with blood
stare back at mine
this double, this doppelganger
is it she or i?
my self
can i slip and fall into
it's melting silveriness
its melting blood?
my mirror.

i dont know why i started this fucking thing to begin with SARA IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT! today on the subway graham and i tried to write a poem a piece before our stop. our theme was to describe something in your bedroom. ill post mine up when i have more energy.

yesterday i finished that portrait of laura. it came out allright, but im not completely happy with the way the eyes turned out - and thats the most important part, damn it! at the moment im trying to read a book about wiccan spirituality. im not sure what i think about it yet, ill let you know. its kinda hard to concentrate though cos the guys in apartment next door are trying to play basketball or something and theyve been pounding on the wall for like an hour.